| Great friends are hard to find...
I'm so glad that I have the friends who are always there... those who stick around, those who are there when I'm in need... I feel so lucky to have them... Jean, Agnes, Lynn.... Sarah(drifted apart... Butt I know she'll pull herself together, i love you sarah) THANK YOU GIRLS~~
So, as yal can tell, I'm so homesick, friendsick here in Taiwan, MENG!!! six month is a long ass time to be away... All I think about all day is how much friends mean to me... When I'm in Chicago, all I have are my friends cuz I have no family there... I never thought that I would miss them as much as I do now... I put some pictures on my ipod yesterday so that I can see them everywhere I go and when I look at those pictures, I always have this gay smile on my face, remembering all the good times that we shared... even if jt's just another gay thursday night out at APARTMENT or Redno GAY! People around me on the bus and stuff always look at me funny because they think i'm crazy, smiling all by myself... BLAHHHHHHHHHHH
So, I'm going to make a list of all the people that I'm missing right now, "NOT" in order of how much:
"AGA, Jean, Sarah, Lynn" NO DOUBT, HOMEGYRLS! No words to describe how much i miss my girls. J***** for some reason he doesn't like his name to be in public...(My new buddy, penpal, chatpal... Thanks for making me feel better, i'll be aiite.... and thanks for always putting a smile on my face, giggles here and there, laughs... =)...OMG my phone bill, my dad will kick my ass seriousely...anyway, xoxo) Dan yes I do miss you, we had fun times last time you came to Taiwan with me, please forgive me... Toulie -hooking me up while I'm in LA, I had a really great time! TOM KIM(TK) you are awesome! Thanks for helping me out with my cell phone situation! Sunny, Smokey, Dan Dan, Bobby, EDWARD! you are the shit! Apple thanks again for doing my hair, Huy, keeping me company on AIM, Louis(calling me in taiwan), Steve, Brian Kim you are pretty dope, thanks for making it to my b-day and taking me to San Soo. Lam i'm hoping to see you soon, take care of yourself while yer in Korea, Dave Kim you gay square... i miss you, Tony good luck in phillllly, Christine you are a very sweet girl, you made my berfdaii extra special, Michael- Calling me long distance in Taiwan, drinks =P. Bily my youngling, Tammy you are so hot, Jasper- DUB show, so glad I met you there. John hwang china was fun, John Choi car show remember! Rowena Lau, Hairgel(Jeff Yi), Buddy, Gumby, Adrial, Alfred you are hot, David Yu you are hot also, Butterz my hamster, Shima, Brian ex CHB buddy, Anna you are a crazy clubber. Arthur wang, haha, yer online. Boobie-ryde down LSD on your R1. Jimmy-Moon Palace, Xanga! UIC, black Si. Amy, Apple at moon palace, Boamy your boobs are so big, all those at A/X... Yup, I'm thinking about all of you boys and girls right this moment... I'm sure there are others, I'll think of you at a later time =P... THANK YOU EVERYONE!
Hmm... what else do i have to say... I had more to say butt I forgot... let me think for a minute... i donno... i think i lost it.. butt yea, memories yal helped me create are very precious and there are so many!!! I feel very special, very lucky!! WOOT !
Okay, while i'm away from home, I have a few goals to accomplish. Of course I wanna spend time with my family, that's why I came(although it's really kicking my ass... having curfews and adults watching you all the time, I'm so not used to it!) I wanna gather some work experience, travel... I also feel while here, I should clean up my act... I've done some people wrong in the past and I hope that they can forgive me, I'm sorry. I want to cut down on the scandelous-ness and flirtatious-ness(?) so people don't see me as a hooch or other bad names... Maybe I should start going to church... butt i'm just so damn lazy... I will pray tho... =P I wanna grow up, I'm such a kid, so naive... need to be more careful about people and more observant of situations... Learn not to say certain things... stop being stupid and immature... yeahhh... it's gonna be hard... Hopefull i'll gain some experience points here in Taiwan... =) I'm a terrible writer... It's hard for me to express feelings in words and I'm sure I sound pretty stoopid right now... SHUT UP, I'M A FOB!
Blah, I have this other important thing to say butt I kinda don't wanna say it on xanga... it's kinda personal... This will be a reminder so I can ponder on it by myself here in Taiwan...
There is this OTHER thing that I wanna say butt I'll keep that one to myself too cuz I wanna wait for the right moment... =P I kinda have this question I wanna ask this one person butt I'm scared of the answer and even if I find out, it's not like I can do anything about it here in Taiwan. And also I'm not sure if it's only short term... blahhh... It's really gay...One day... I'll wait it out...
Oh, Yeah, another thing... I'm lonly!!! I'm depressed... Being single sucks... well... actually... it sucks a little... Oh well... I guess it'll give me time to figure some things out...
So, I'm truly missing many people... some more than others... =P I'm always wondering if there are people who are missing me too... cuz you know i'm the only one away from home... thinking about these kinda stuff cuz I have nothing else better to do... People at home are busy doing their own things, carrying on with their everyday lives and probably don't even remember that I'm gone... oh well... it's okay... Yup, i gotta start packing my shit for Indonesia, oh yea, I'm going to Indonesia tomorrow for a business trip for 2 weeks. I'll be back in Taiwan at the end of the month. WIsh me luck! I'm not getting paid cuz it's not really a job, I'm just going to check out the "plywood" business. It'll be a crazy expreience cuz I don't know people there and I'm gonna be staying with my dad's friend. I heard there is no hot water there, no flushing toilets, people wipe their asses with a bucket of water and their hands.. no highways... lots of beggers, pretty primitive, how crazy is that... it's gonna be dangerous too I heard cuz people there don't like americans because they're muslims or something... I have to be very careful..!! Yup, I'm done with my runts... take care everyone~ XOXO
Much Love,
Ying |
